Instant gratification

I need things to be done quick. The faster the better. Of course we cannot compromise on the process and the details that are required to reach the end goal. instant gratification is inversely proportionate to patience. And I think I’m running out of patience.

So I have a couple of friends telling me that I need to be patient.. That my something will come soon. I’ve been waiting for so freaking long.. And mind you am really trying to seize opportunities elsewhere.. So far nothing.

I go to work for 9hrs a day and for 8 hours I’m not doing anything. I’m so afraid that my brain cells will die so during these 8hours I have taken up philosophy reading and suduku(damn I’m good at that game now). Don’t tell me that I should be asking or looking for more things to be done in the office cause I have. And I maxed out all that is needed to be done and even launched new platform for whatever I’m doing to the masses. So unless all the stars align and decides to bring the market up (and interest down) there’s really nothing much to be done. :(

God reallly trying very hard here to be patient and to not cry at work, please God I need your directions really soon.