an intervention / parable of the lost son

Luke 15: 31 “My son; the father said, you are always with me, and everything I have is yours.But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.”

The Bible always tells of God having a purpose for us, and that He knows our ways and thoughts (Psalm 139:2); He probably knew what kind of struggles we faced or will face, when we will get married, when we will find a right fit in our career, whether or not its our calling to do certain ministry works etc. God knows it all. But yet, He is human enough to give us free will.

And therein lies the irony baffling many philosophers and of course, us - that if God knows it all.. does it mean that we do not actually have free will?

To be honest, I do not know how to explain that either (if you do please let me know). But I have had countless earnest discussions with Greg which led me to this conclusion; God gave us free will, He probably thought of the different routes our lives could pan out, but gave us the decision to choose for ourselves which was the ‘best’/best, and then He took it from there.

So what if you select a path that will merely lead to a downward spiral (even though i am pretty sure there is a narrow gate somewhere for you to go back to Him)? God knows that it will be a bad path, but because His love for you in the form of free will takes precedence over what He planned, He’d let you go ahead.

In “How I Met Your Mother”, whenever someone in the group does something obsessive or downright silly, the clique will stage an intervention. But God.. will God actually stage an intervention? Probably a hint or two, maybe send some people to enter our lives (most likely to be pushed away because of our ignorance), get the cellies or the church mates to pray for you; small intervals of interventionism from God. But all His actions to lead us to the narrow gate will most likely be futile, at least for the early stages.

WHICH LET ME TO THINK (and hence this post at an ungodly time), the whole time God is standing at the sideline watching us suffer, I am sure He wants to and is trying to help but He is unable to do a thing nor reach out to us because of our veiled eyes. And then He tries and tries and tries…. (until Kingdom comes). Imagine how hard it must be for God to pine for you, to watch you suffer and curse Him and to forget about the cross; when all He wanted to do was to walk alongside you and carry you to safety and make it all okay again. But He cannot, because He gave us free will, and most likely is attempting to be a supportive Father.

Anyway, despite denying the cross for infinite times, assuming we eventually find the narrow gate back; God just welcomes, kills a fatten calf, celebrate your return and be merry! As though the pain we/you put Him through either eased to exist or was drowned by the deafening sounds of the trumpets and voices of the angel chorale.

Seriously God you are abit cray cray.. but this is what love is. And i am so amazed.

Taking it back down to ordinary mortal level, if you watch a friend or a colleague screwing themselves over, you want to help but you can’t cause it will fall on deaf ear, and of course you’re being a supportive friend/colleague. So we pray and pray, we pray for a miracle. In the meantime, we watch you screw your life over, wept and begged.. until something happens.

Miracle or not, we are your go-to-s, which i think is a good thing? But the process.. its too hard. Oh well.

p.s. if you were to take it back a few paragraphs up, i’m thinking if all these negative paths were to there to help us learn something about ourselves? mm.. huh then what about free will now? —> Gregory please answer thanks.

On golddiggers (cues Kanye)

“it’s like shopping online for a pair of shoes. You want to be sure those shoes fit comfortably - you don’t want a cheap pair that are going to give you blisters after a couple of wears.”

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/this-britain/confessions-of-a-gold-digger-454922.html

James 4:10
10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.

The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, in all things, humble yourselves!

so so thankful, so so so thankful

Hi God,

i couldn’t ask for a better way to start May. Thank you for allowing everything to fall into place. I don’t know how else to thank you, God, but really.. thank you thank you thank you! 

Your rigidity and stupidity kills me

Negative Feedback Loop

A year on, I think most of us moved on. But that is not representative of us forgetting you, neither is it that we stopped missing you. We carried our heavy hearts, burdens and grieves and trudged on. Perhaps (in fact) even struggling at times. They say time heals all wounds, but time cannot heal a heart part removed. But yes, a year later P, we moved on. But the love we have of and for you, of what we carry in our heart, even though unspoken, it’s nothing short of the love we had a year ago, and for me, 10 years ago.

A year on, I know some of us haven’t. Their grieve turning into a negative feedback loop. I wish I could tell them to put a halt to this and to stop using her name as an excuse (the irony is that i could do the same). I wish I could tell them that their relationship a destructive time bomb and it will only lead them to spiral deeper into delusions. But telling these now won’t help unless i give them something else to hope for.

A year on, I hope for you to pull yourself together, and really get on with life.

Speaking of negative feedback loop, in such a situation, someone needs to break out of this loop, this.. generational curse. It takes courage and a lot of mental dexterity to will yourself. And most importantly, divine help, really, God help us.